It was yet another morning of hurry and rush…I step out of the apartment without a jacket and untied shoe laces to catch the bus… with temperatures reaching 5 degrees below zero, snowy morning and slippery walkways. Trust me, I had my laptop backpack , my vanity bag , travel card, mobile phone and the house keys in my hands and I sprinted to the bus stop to find that there was nobody in the bus stop and no bus.
It was a such an I-hate-myself moment. I wanted to kick myself hard for the time I tossed lazily in the bed browsing the news site. I cursed those moment i hit snooze and I changed the alarm time.
I stood freezing in the snow and I saw the time display board, there was a minute more for the bus to arrive… and there it entered the bay.
I sit panting for breath. Annoyed with myself I dumped the keys and the card. Then I begin digging my bag for cosmetics… cold cream , lip balm…. fasten my shoe lace , brush my hair of the dampness from the snow. Hugh… this isn’t a happening on a blue moon. But an everyday affair.
It happens with a little variation like I don’t wear my socks on a few days and slip my barefoot into the shoes.. sometimes it is just the unfastened lace. but happens everyday.
Having lived 50% of the average human life (considering the average of my generation ;-)), I feel an urge in me to change this. This gives me a tough start for the day.
I didn’t have to cook for a family, feed kids and send them to school before this rush. I don’t have any chores to do.. I don’t exercise in the morning and I don’t even have breakfast or coffee.
I really want to change this.. and stop hating myself for this.
It isn’t because of an inspiration …
It isn’t a new year resolution…
It isn’t motivation or not even self motivation…
It is true want of freedom. A want for a morning calm…
This post is the beginning of the little changes I want in life. As 2014 drew to a close, I made a journal entry on what I have achieved in the year and what I wish to achieve in 2015. Thoughts are always around a Me (v 4.0). Yes I want a new version of me and this step one towards version 4.0.
Wish me luck!!
January 23, 2015 at 4:32 am
Similar thought process … Wish u do sevelop and deploy v4.0 the way you want it to be sis !!!
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January 23, 2015 at 4:19 pm
Thank you :-). v4.0 is in the making and promise that in the posts to come.Keep waiting!!
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